So Ramadhan is over. Sadly i did not look to fulfilling this tumblr with my reflections but have been obsessed with a person i thought i was falling for. That was my dugaan. That was my obstacle is achieving the best of Ramadhan. I thought about him more than God. That wasnt suppose to be it.
So when Satan is locked up during Ramdhan, i was distracted other ways. Wasted Arini. Wasted. I could have achieved better. I was only focused during the first 2 weeks of Ramadhan,after which i was lost in distractions.
Syawal is here.Syukur alhamdullilah that i manage what best i could despite me failing in a lot of ways to focus on my faith.
That aside, school has been of course a bunch of distractions. I am determined to push everything else aside beginning now and focus on academics and faith.To be teh best of myself and reconstruct my personality to be a better muslimah.
No I have yet to wear the hijab yet..the calling is there though.Its been pulling at me thsi past 2011. It still is.But i know I have no discipline as yet.Insyallah with all of your good prayers (to those who are reading or not) i will get there.
Someone ever said to me…that when i love Allah more, He will bless me with an individual that will love me for my intense love towards my creator. I believe in that now. I think its the only love that i can rely upon. Allah’s love and blessing.